We Do Control Our Own Destiny

One of the great things about my little page here is that I can bitch and moan to millions of people and there’s nothing you can do about. Well, I suppose you can stop reading. Anyways, today has been exhausting. The phone’s won’t stop ringing, and at times I feel like I’m running on a treadmill with the projects I am working on. I still have an hour to go in this workday and I’m on the brink of jumping out the window. To make matters worse, I was all set to leave town early tomorrow with Genie and Bella to embark on our first family camping trip. Well, apparently I won’t be getting off work at 12:30p as I HAD WROTE ON THE OFFICE CALENDAR! Instead we’ll probably hit the freeway at 6p and arrive at our camp spot sometime around 8:00p. I won’t be so pissed once I get into the car and Genie and Bella are smiling and ready to go, but damn, I had my heart set on getting up there mid afternoon and have our tents set up so we could really enjoy an extra day up there. This is one of the problems working for a small office, time off is blown out of proportion and everybody freaks out. It’s crappy because I could run this office by myself for a long time, but for some reason even the people who think they are more qualified start shaking in their boots and cannot even man the place for a couple hours! It’s just complete BS.

In other news…You may remember last year I wrote on having a breakthrough summer. If you don’t remember, you can read it here. Well, I can honestly say it didn’t really pan out the way I wanted to. But here we are approaching another Summer and I’ve got it in me to start making some progress on my personal dreams. I’m tired of complaining about every work day. I’m tired of complaining about the people I work with, and I’m really tired of living under the cloud of feeling that I have not lived up to my potential. Many people wait until New Years to change, but I’m going to start in the summer. I’m going to do things that make me happy and allow me to progress in my personal life. I know I can be a better husband, father, son, brother, christian, employee, student, video editor, softball player, basketball player, accountant, and whatever else I do in this great life. It’s crazy to think that there are so many aspects of life, but i continue to let ONE aspect ruin the rest. I can no longer just sit down and watch the world go by and just complain about the things I don’t like. If I don’t like my job I need to work on bettering my career, If I don’t like weighing 200 lbs then I need to run more, if I don’t like getting average grades in school then I need to study harder. Once you sit back and think about all the things that bother you, you start to realize that YOU are actually in control of every one of those things.

There are no more excuses, this WILL be the Summer of Change.